New year, new classes, new attituide and a clean slate.
Thing are on the upswing. I currently am trying to redem myself in the acdemic stance and so far been doing well at it, though I still have a few hurdles to over come. More later when I actully think of something more worthwhile.

4 days past still no go.
Well, I spent most of the past 4 sleeping and thuly didn't get what I needed done. I fear I am getting sick again, but no matter. In several hours I will be seeing my adviser and getting a form signed. Finally I am clean a slate, now I jsut need to clean my room, to stave off the worst of illness. God damned visious cycles. I just need to break this opne today. God be with me and anyone else who needs Him.

Another week more news. This time semi-positve
I see the light at the end of the tunnel and this time its not a train/ Nor is is heaven, but that's beside the point. Though I am still rather pissed about this shitty semester, I am working on means which I can erase it from my acedmic record! That fucking pneumonia that started this is actully working for me. Now if only I can make it to my acedmic adivsor and get a form signed as well as get the ok from Finacial Aid, I can properly clean the slate.

Lost in a sea of Bitterness, Adrift on a ocean of Doubt. Too many damn questions, no answers.
Had yet another migrine. Out of my migriane meds. Spent most of the weekend sleeping. Too much sleep, need to get stuff done. Accomplished one thing another eludes me. Hope linger, but emersed in neaagtivity. Need help, but all alone. Waiting is all I can do other htne one thing to do.

I think I am starting to get sick again. Feeling weak, feeling doomed. Need to speak with people, yet can't get out. I shouldn't be here, it shouldn't be now. Time is a everpresent foe. Why must we fight? Can't we work together? Why don't my plans work, why don't I follow through? Why all the bumps in the road and peralious footing? What the fuck went right May 2002? How can I recapture it? Who will tell me the answers I seek?

Start another day.
Head hurting due to mirgriane, forceibly suffering from sleep deprivation and wait for a unceartian day. What a way to start the fith day of the eleventh month. I really am bad at coeping with stresss and my Dysgraphia is bothering me to no end. More later.

Screwed up on Tuseday.
Got a migirain and overselpt then missed an appoint. Bad luck, howerver I have a first step of sending e-mail to profs. My next post should hold good news.

Another day, same screw ups
Its been six hour ssince my last post and I am currently missing classes. God knows why. Despiar I guess or maybe even a childish, "I don't want to do it because past things didn't go my way" thing. Really counterperductive. Its not a curse, at least not at the moment. I think its is just the resoult of self neglect with breeds slef neglect, the SOP of the past 3 years more or less. Why does this have to happen?

I really need to knuckle down and get in gear, but having the engine shuting down inches fro the starting line is not a way to run a race or life. Why do I do this to myself. I get no enjoyment out it and I can't find information about it within myself, though its not through a lack of serching. Maybe I've been going about things the wrong way. but if that was true then why can I see no other way? Why am I like this? Why can't I get answers? What next?

Living on the Edge
Well, that bout of pneumonia was more reslilent then I thought. It took two weeks fianlly gets rid of it, but the lastning effects of it in reguard to pill schedule and sleep schedule, but hope is not lost. The new month bring new hopes and challages, challage I will face, instead of waiting out due to illness or other reson. Tally hoo!!!!

In other news, my cousin got married last week, but that joyous occation was tempered by my father getting a really serious illnes, though thinks are looking up for him. Life might suck, but things can always change for the better when one has hope and hope is once thing I am really aquainted with. I will be updating more regualrly.

2 Months of Stagnation thwarted.
Well I am back on this day of October the 3rd Year of the Lord 2003. I finally remebered my Biolog and here's my entry.

Basicly nothing is really new. Back at college, bought a X-Box and contrated pneumoina while being diagnosed with Allergies with a touch of lovely Asthema. So here I am fighting of the last vestagies of the evil disease with fluids, antibodics and a good deal of Robistussin CF and Kleenex. I really should find something else to talk about and I really should get to work on my website with maybe 6 logs to put up....

Neuroligist, TB tests, Migrianes and flamers oh my!
Welocme to Al Ray's first Bio Log thingy


Wierd day. Got up at a dcent tiem after going to bed at a decent time. Took care of my TB test for a Hospice voleterring gig. Was nastly flamed by an old freind last night. Hvae a migraine which lasted since last Wesnday. Gerally bored atm.