About myself. By: Al Ray
Many people who have websites have a section like this. I have
decided to jump on that bandwagon. I have been doing a lot of
introspection lately, for good and for ill, I found out something
about myself and realized that my memory has been clearer that
it was in the past, thanks to a medication I started taking just
before I left college for the summer.
I am going to start off with the basics. I am a 4th
generation American male with Greek, Italian, French and German
roots. I was born at around 7:00am on the twenty-fourth of August
1981AD. Which makes me 19 years old and staring my 20th
birthday in the face. My zodiac sign is Virgo and I show it sometimes.
I have two happily married loving parents, who have been married
25 years this coming September, and 3 sisters. I am the second
child. Even if this preordained me to being the more unusual child,
I have several handicaps that help make be more of an oddball
compared to my sisters. My oldest sister, Paulette, is a pretty
typical first born. She is 3 years older than me at 22. She is
the family perfectionist and she is a bit self-centered and likes
to make life a bit hellish for the others in the family, but deep
down she has a good heart and is a loving person. My second sister
Becca, is about 18 months younger than I am at 18 years old. She
is more of the partier of the family. Last, but surly not least
is Diana, who is 14. Diana is the athlete of the family and it
is common for her to play 2 or 3 sports at a time. My father,
also Al, is an upper level manager for EDS and my mother, Anna,
is a hospice nurse. We have two dogs living at our house, also.
The first is a 10 year old female Cocker Spaniel named Pookie
and the other is a 4.5 year old German Shepherd name Romeo, who
is actually huge for a Shepherd.
Now to me, the "oddball" of the family, though I get
a lot of it from my dad. I am a geek in many ways. I am a role-playing
gamer, wargamer, videogamer, history nut, amateur writer/poet,
actor, bad comedian, and avid reader. What I got from my dad was
my love of history, wargaming, videogaming, and my love of reading.
The rest basically arose from the others. The reason that this
is so starts with how my handicaps effected my childhood. I guess
I should start talking about those and my physical self.
I will start with the physical. I stand at five feet, nine inches
tall and I weight about 230 pounds, which makes me a bit overweight.
I hope to correct this soon. My build is kind of that of a football
players that has not kept it up. I have short dark brown hair
and brown eyes. My skin tone is a light olive, meaning that I
have some color even in the winter and I tan pretty easily. I
am pretty hairy, though I am never let my facial hair go for too
long. I am very Greek looking, as I take heavily off of my mother's
side of the family. In contrast my sisters look more Italian and
practically look like different ages of the same person because
they take off of my father's side. I have been described by others
My handicaps had a large part in making who I am. The first is
that I am hard of hearing in my left ear and have to wear a hearing
aid in it, though in that past my hearing was much, much worse.
When I was about three years old, I had benign tumors in both
of my eardrums which practically destroyed them. I had 15+ operations
over the next 9 years to both remove the tumors and reconstruct
the ear drums. During this time I wore a hearing aid. Child at
this age can be cruel and was teased relentlessly during some
periods of this time. I also was a little war crazed during this
period also. I did have some friends, though the teasers always
outnumbered them. Basically this lead to a bit of alienation when
cause me to find solace in books and video games. I rarely hang
out with friends after school, but would rather read, play games
by myself and watch a lot of TV. Another handicap that aided in
the teasing and the feeling of alienation was that I have severe
Attention Deficit Disorder a.k.a. ADD. I also always had bad reactions
to medications that treated it. They often made me depressed and
,in the worst case, made me think about suicide and have a fascination
with death. This added to the teasing and sense of alienation.
I am also very absentminded, which I am told comes from my ADD.
The partial alienation played some havoc with my self-esteem and
my socialization. I am less socially and emotionally mature that
other people of my age, but I make up for it in other parts if
my maturity, such as my tolerance, compassion and sympathy. It
also reversed me from outgoing to strangers, when I was a little
child, to being rather shy. I am a perpetual worrier and I am
somewhat paranoid about what people think of me and what I do.
I usually counter this with rationalization, empathy, and optimism.
Sometimes I get worried that I offended someone with something
I said or did and my attempts at reconciliation father offended
them. This usually occurs when I don't really know a person and/or
have been in contact with them via e-mail and/or an instant message
service. Do realize that they might have problems with their computer,
have a heavy amount of e-mail or something innocent like that,
but I still worry sometimes.
There other aspects of my personality are that I am kind and tolerant
person, though at times I can be a bit of a hothead. I am very
emotional and sometimes a bit moody. I am sensitive to the feelings
of other and really try to help though sometimes people find that
a bit annoying when I continually ask them how they are and try
to cheer them up. My sense of humor is very good. I would laugh
at just about anything. Consequently I often say jokes that other
people don't find funny. I am highly intelligent, like many other
RPGers, and I like to show off my knowledge a lot.
My interests are varied, as I mention before. I do have minor
interests and knowledge in many other fields. I know a quite a
bit about firearms, which helps in modern day RPGs, and a recently
pick up an interest in target shooting, of which I turn up to
be a natural. Basically, the first time I actually took a shot
the bullet hit the target at 25 yards and ever other of the about
30 shots I took that day hit within the orange part of the target
and about one third of them hit the center white circle. I know
a bit about geology, astronomy, biology, chemistry and a few other
sciences. As I mentioned before I have a love of history and have
a vast general knowledge of it and my specialties include general
American history, World War II, and ancient European history,
specific that of the Greeks and Romans.
I mentioned that I have a fondness of role-playing games. I got
my interest in them from some video games I played and novels
that I read, both of which where based off of Dungeons & Dragons.
I started collecting source books of AD&D 2nded
around Middle school, but it was not till Sophomore year of high
school I actually got experience role-playing. I basically played
sporadically over the next few years with buddies of mine and
at conventions, but did get a really steady group until last year
which was my Freshman year of college at Western Michigan University
when I joined the local gaming club cal the Western Michigan Gamers
Guild. Since them I joined three table top groups with the WMGG
and join several on-line groups that I met via the forum, Gamerchick
Planet, which I have a link to on my link page. I recommend checking
This website is a new thing in my life. I need a place to put my writings on the web for others to see and make a place where others can share their writings. I hope you enjoyed learning about me. Please check out enjoy the rest of the site and thank you very much for you patronage.